Showing posts with label Feelings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Feelings. Show all posts

6.20.2012

paintings



Pardon me for the lack of updates but i have been real tied up with works and paintings . Honestly , i find it extremely difficult to stick to my own aesthetic . I was told constantly to paint flowers & trees because it is what the society perceived as "art" and it is accepted by all unlike those abstract & expression art which were looked upon as "dirt" . But i don't make a living out of it , so fuck what people thinks . :>

heheheehehehe.
anyway , things has been good to me ,  school , friends , family .. everything .
i realized that i used to create barriers around me because i thought no one would understand me but the actual problem lies inside me , the unwillingness of talking and cocky-ness :(
But it's all good now ^.^ V 

5.06.2012

Mixed Knife party .


Mixed feeling strikes again and i don't feel good about it . Honestly , i wonder is that what my mind & soul are only capable of feeling ? Negative emotions so that i have a reason to paint ? PROBABLY .

Next Saturday's a huge day for me . Whatever happens , it's gonna change my life and leave a huge impact on it  . As a Pessimism , obviously i kept my mind filled with negative thoughts because i'm pretty convinced after so many experiences that whatever i wished for will turn out the exact opposite , yeah my life really do sucks . But on the other end , i tried hard to think positively just for once too , who knows what might happens right ?
 "Expect the unexpected" they said . But if we expect the unexpected , does that makes the unexpected expected and the expected unexpected ?
I have no clue on what to feel or how to describe my feelings ....
Been told that i am a really complicated mixed depressed girl , and i have no complain about this statement that have been made about me because i couldn't agree more.
But i am pretty happy though , discovered a place where i can express my unknown feelings without actually talking . ▼
 (1),(2) are photography of my painting by me . 



▲ i am listening to Nero - crush on you ( Knife party remix) and i can say it's pretty sick ▲