paintings

Pardon me for the lack of updates but i have been real tied up with works and paintings . Honestly , i find it extremely difficult to stick to my own aesthetic . I was told constantly to paint flowers & trees because it is what the society perceived as "art" and it is accepted by all unlike those abstract & expression art which were looked upon as "dirt" . But i don't make a living out of it , so fuck what people thinks . :>

heheheehehehe.

anyway , things has been good to me ,  school , friends , family .. everything .

i realized that i used to create barriers around me because i thought no one would understand me but the actual problem lies inside me , the unwillingness of talking and cocky-ness :(

But it's all good now ^.^ V 

lust ;

It's a lazy saturday , stayed at home and hibernate since I'm dead broke. Just mainly eating and lying down on my couch while listening to indie songs . And it kills me that I've discovered tons of gorgeous online shop at the wrong moment , and that's why i was inspired to do this post so when I'm rich I'll know what to buy . HAHAH but that will never happen cuz' once i have $$ i spend it fo'sure! anyway , i've been lusting for these babes everyday .......

                                       




  ............. oh so gorgeous ! would love to buy them all if someone would hire me to work for my 2week holidays :(  But a new watercolor pan sets will always be my priority if i ever have enough cash to buy anything .
                             

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Swollen eyes & forgotten fairytale ▲

 

The day that means alot to me has finally came to a end .

Life's a roller coaster , it won't always go the way you wanted and I've learned a truly important life-time lesson.

everything from Sungai Wang (major love for the vintage clothes there, it's like treasure-hunting) , except for my mum's 15year old Loewe sling bag & my dearest Dr Martens brogues.

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met up with the love of my life ♡♡♡
;Calviincho ;Adrianloh ;JayPerry 

 

Had a really fun day despite all the tearing and swollen eyes.
 pictures are stolen from adrianloh's camera and all edited by me ∇.

Mixed Knife party .

Mixed feeling strikes again and i don't feel good about it . Honestly , i wonder is that what my mind & soul are only capable of feeling ? Negative emotions so that i have a reason to paint ? PROBABLY .

Next Saturday's a huge day for me . Whatever happens , it's gonna change my life and leave a huge impact on it  . As a Pessimism , obviously i kept my mind filled with negative thoughts because i'm pretty convinced after so many experiences that whatever i wished for will turn out the exact opposite , yeah my life really do sucks . But on the other end , i tried hard to think positively just for once too , who knows what might happens right ?

 "Expect the unexpected" they said . But if we expect the unexpected , does that makes the unexpected expected and the expected unexpected ?

I have no clue on what to feel or how to describe my feelings ....

Been told that i am a really complicated mixed depressed girl , and i have no complain about this statement that have been made about me because i couldn't agree more.
But i am pretty happy though , discovered a place where i can express my unknown feelings without actually talking . ▼
 (1),(2) are photography of my painting by me . 

▲ i am listening to Nero - crush on you ( Knife party remix) and i can say it's pretty sick ▲